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Albedo ([personal profile] purgatio) wrote in [community profile] insomnis_veritas 2015-01-30 08:30 pm (UTC)

[ His careful baiting is taken, absorbed, swallowed down in absolutely the most perfect way-- She turns to violence, then, to expressing herself through pain, and he had thought it before--laid it within his mind before--how much she is like Rubedo at times, how blindingly, beautifully, destructively, she shines, she destroys, oh look how she burns.

And Albedo is ice.

His cheek stings and she is still yelling at him, holding him up, holding him to her, and he could lash out, he could let go, he could let up, destroy her, destroy himself-- He could crumble into nothing and break into tears, but he wants--and here is the strange truth of it, Albedo wanting--he wants her to understand, wants her to know him even if she cannot accept it; Albedo wants her to see him.

Past the bravado and the dramatics, past the differences of opinion and culture, past the contaminated subject of black of white. Past her view of good and his of evil, past humanity and angels and devils.

Albedo does nothing in response. He waits until she's blown herself out before he speaks, perfectly still and sane, lacking all reactions of before.

Violence prompts many a thing, and to Albedo, it only speaks in truth. ]


Listen to me.

[ A quiet, low voice, calm and succinct, nothing that should come from a twelve-year-old. ]

I decided.

[ And he smiles then, a beat and only, almost kindly. ]

I decided it. I was given the role and I accepted it with everything that I am. I'm lonely. You know that. And in that choice, there was a way for me not to be alone. You understand that.

[ He knows that she does, even if she doesn't want to. ]

I "bother" with you, because you are precious to me. Because when I'm with you, I don't have to think about my brothers or never dying. I don't have to be alone.

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